2Consider it pure joy, my brother, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
I had started this entry this morning. But I ran out of time to really write out what my observations and thoughts were.
Now it speaks a whole new (but similar) ballgame.
*click*
Funny how these things work out sometimes.
So as most of you, dear readers, know, the latest jump in my spiritual journey was quite a big change, and I had to seriously look hard into it to know if I was doing it for me, or for the benefit of my boyfriend at the time.
It was determined for me, but the boyfriend still played a big part of it, as it wouldn't have come into consideration at this point in my life if he wasn't a part of it. Well we hit a point where it seemed to us there wasn't anywhere else to go, and that as we started talking about what we were facing I got the suspicion that I was being tested.
Have I really changed? Can I stick to this new and improved Tina without the support of a kind, considerate, and wonderful boyfriend whom I love very much?
I sat on it for over a week. Prayed about it. And finally after a long conversation today, took that next step.
This is, and was, of course, by no means easy. So whatever help one can lend, even if it's a smack if you see me going back to old Tina. I don't want to be that anymore, and I'm afraid that it'll feel easier to just take comfort in the old things, because I'm used to them.
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