General State of Things

So the holidays haven't been as stressful as I thought they were going to be. Thanksgiving was nice and easy, spent with friends and loved ones. Mom found something to do, and I didn't get guilt tripped for not spending the holiday with her. So that was nice. I ended up having dinner with her a week or so later. I'll be doing Christmas dinner with her and her boyfriend. I haven't heard from Dad yet. I really do need to talk to him. He doesn't even know about the accident.

I'm not sure how that will make him feel though, finding out a month or so after the fact that he almost lost his only daughter. I don't want to be passive-agressive about it, but I do need to let him know that I really feel bad about not being able to talk to him and not being able to spend time with him. And feeling like a second class family member. Like he doesn't have time for me because of Janine and the girls and the rest of her family.

But oh well, it's not like I'm lacking the family love recently or anything. Thanks to my experiences in Alpha I have a whole new set of surrogate parents. I get to share my Alpha story at both services on January 6th. That should be interesting. Jim and Pastor John have been trying to get me up there, and I kept putting it off because I wasn't sure what to say, or how to properly edit my story. Not everything is family apropriate in regards to where I've been and just how much has changed since I made the switch.

Hrm... what else is going on. Oh, I did a lot of work at church for the Christmas concerts we had. Helped with the set and then worked each show as a follow spot operator. I even made it into the program. That made me happy. I missed doing theater stuff. So it was nice to get to go back into something I love doing and be able to serve at the same time. There are rumors of a future production of Godspell, and if so I'll be there. Well I'll be there regardless of what show we're doing, as I already said whatever we end up doing I'm part of the team now. :-) But I've had a particular song stuck in my head ever since, and I don't know why I can't remember the name...

When you feel bad, or under a curse
Your life is bad, your prospects are worse
Your wife is sighing, crying, your olive tree is dying
Temples are greying, teeth are decaying and creditors weighing your purse.

Your mood and your robe
Are both a deep blue
You'd bet that Job
Has nothing on you...

and that's all I can remember.

I've had to put a lot of my crafty stuff on hold the last week, with working on the show and juggling my chiropractor appointments. But I did start another scarf, and I'm being all ambitious after only knitting for a couple of months, it's in a rib knit, and will be striped. A nice heather grey and an ivory. It should be pretty. I've started to do minor alterations for friends. Which has been a test of my faith in my sewing skills. But so far things have been okay, and the extra money has been much needed. At some point I need to remember to take pictures of some of my projects so I can be all "Hey lookit what I made!" and then feel awesome about it. :-)

Anyway, I should probably get back to work. But hey! I actually took the time to write in blogger, and not just cross-post something from livejournal!